Do you ever have one of those days, weeks, months where everything just happens at once and it seems like so much you seriously just can't control yourself anymore. I am having one, well all of those. Seriously I feel like I am at my breaking point.
The only problem is, I can't break, there is no time for it. I am just needing to vent. This month has been, well lets just say not so great. There is just too much to deal with all at once. When you think you are getting close to being at the end of it all, more comes. I have been able to steer clear of all the sick cold stuff that has been going around until this weekend. We planned a birthday party for Keegan and don't you know that is when I decide to get a cold. I have a stuffy runny nose topped off with a sore throat. I still have to go to work because I feel like I have to. Taking time off work doesn't seem to be an option for me. So I go to work all morning barely being able to talk and decide to go to the OB doctor in the afternoon because Matt called them and asked if there was over the counter stuff I could take. Well they made it sound like it was a huge deal that I come in and so I agreed only if I didn't have to go back to my original appointment on Thursday. Going to the doctor is one of my least favorite things to do. I take time off work and go only for it to feel like a huge waste of time. All they told me was not to go to work, which again isn't a luxury I feel I have. They told me that when I get home to take it easy. I could have this baby any day. So back to work I go. When I get there I find out that the massage therapist went home sick. This only irrates me because why do I feel like have to be there but everyone else can go home when they are sick. Again I can barely talk. About 4:45 Matt calls me and tells me he is throwing up. Great!!!! Now what am I suppose to do. I go and tell my boss that I have to go and he tell me that I have to stay. Ok so I am sick myself, Matt is now throwing up, I 'm suppose to take it easy because this baby could come any day and I have to stay at work. Not to mention all the other stress that is going on that is a bit more serious than just being sick, but I don't care to talk about it. So I finally get to leave at 5:45 and get home at 6:00 to find Matt seriously sick in the bathroom, the house a complete disaster, Keegan hungry, the dogs outside and have to have their feet wiped and then let in to eat. Trying to light a candle cuz it stinks in here. Trying to do the dishes but Keegan is all over the dishwasher pulling dirty stuff out. Matt calling me on the phone saying he thinks he should eat something. Finding out that all the soup is gone and nobody told me. Seriously at this point I just want to lose it. I don't even have time to be sick. As my boss told me, too many people are counting on me these next few weeks to get things done. I'm overwhelmed. I know it isn't anybody's fault, you can't control being sick. I am just ready for this bad month to go away but I am not ready for this baby to come yet. I really hope that things are going to work out. Mason is going to be ok and the other stressful event will work out for the best and Keegan and I will not start throwing up. That is what I am hoping for, praying for.
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