My Emotional Button

Today I had my emotional button pushed to a limit I do not like to be at. I'm to train on a new tool set here at work with a new trainer. We had planned on this week for training but my engineer wanted me to stay where I'm at for a bit longer. I told my trainer that I was going to be available after my break for a little to get a head start. Well, I got back from break and I saw that Heather sent me an email about Mason and that Damon had updated their Blog. So, I was reading them and he came up to me and asked if I was available. I asked if he could give me 5-10 min to finish reading the email and blog. He asked if it was work related. I said no, but it's very important to me and that I would be ready in just a min. He went off saying that I have to start my training. He was being very arrogant about it. I replied by telling him what the emails were about and he still went off about me being off break and I should start training. He just has no Heart. I told him to leave. I understand that it was not work related, but you can't just read a sentence or two of an email and blog about what's going on with Mason and then leave without reading it all. It's just to close to my heart. To me Family Comes 1st! Well, this really tore me up. It was like a stab in the heart. Mason is such a special little boy and I miss him dearly. I can't imagine seeing him right now, but all I want to do is be by his side and talk to him. After a few emails from my dear wife I settled down, but something has changed in me now. I'm that much more eager to find that cure for Juvenile Dermatomyositis. Please, if you are reading this and don't know about the Cure JM foundation just visit http://www.curejm.org/ and read the Smedley Blog and make a donation. A cure is out there, we just have to find it and this take $$.

I miss you Mason. Stay strong and we will see you soon.

Love Uncle,
Matt